JRLC Here I Come!

Most people already know from my post last Friday that I have been accepted into JRLC this year. But, most don’t know the story on how I got here. So here goes!

Picture it…just kidding. I came back to Christ in the fall of 2014, but unfortunately had a car accident in December of that year as well. That was a hard time that made me really think on what God had for me. Fast forward to Men’s Conference time in 2015, I was still living in Eldon and we came down for the conference that year. It was still held at the South Campus at this point. I remember the one thing that really stuck out to me was the friendliness of the volunteers and how they really cared.

The turning point for me to decide I wanted to pursue coming to LC was I walked down the aisle on the first night for prayer and I had a volunteer pat me on the back on the way back to my seat. What does that mean, to me it meant they loved me and cared. I remember coming home and researching about LC since I heard about it at the conference and then prayed about it and felt like it was something I needed to do.

I applied and made the decision to move to the area to go. God had different plans the first two years before allowing me to be admitted. But, those times were both a good time and a bad time. It helped me grow up and mature and God on one had, but always had those doubts on the other. But, God is true to his word, as Pastor Mark said on Sunday, he is a green light Dad (God is) and if though the answer may be yes, no or wait at the moment, He knows what He is doing.

I am beyond excited to see what God will doing during my year at JRLC. I will most likely be the oldest student (30, yes I do look good for my age, thank you!) But, I don’t care about that. Already having 58 credits hours makes it tough for scheduling purposes, but on the other hand, it means, I can most likely graduate in 1 year as well. Thank you many years of electives for being there for me.

Pastor Josh told me this and it really stuck with me, go into it with both eyes wide open. I am going in knowing that God called and and will equip me, knowing that with Him all things are possible.

My prayer for JRLC is simply this as it has been my prayer for 3 years now, “Whatever Your will, Whatever You have, I am all Yours!”

Talk soon friends!

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It has been awhile since my last post, but I need to keep up more often with this blog.

To start off this posting, I wanted to go back to first of the year. We all make resolutions and expect to keep them. One of them I made was to become closer to God and do everything he asked me to do. Well, that didn’t work out so well. Instead of drawing closer to Him, I withdrew myself from society. I left my life group hanging without me and miss their friendship. Community within the church is so important, get in a life group, it will help you with your walk.

The enemy knows how to get us down, he will use the very thing you want to change to get to away from it. He wants us to fail and to live for the world and not God. But, I refuse to accept that! We had a great service yesterday at James River Church. It was all about Jesus praying in the Garden before he would be beat and die for our sins. One of the things that hit me the hardest was Pastor John talking about how prayer helps us fight the enemy.

I will admit this, I have not been where I should be with God over the last few months. Am I Christian, absolutely…but we all have those times where we get in a rut, and instead of me relying on God, I tried to do things myself. Needless to say, it didn’t work!

God took me from the gay lifestyle for a reason, not to slip back into it, but to reach those that struggle with the same things. I choose His calling, not mine, not Satan’s plan.

I CHOOSE GOD, I WILL CHASE HIM, NOT THIS WORLD

Gay to God, My Story!

I posted some of this on Facebook but wanted to expand on it, so I decided to write a longer blog posting. Caution, there is real talk here, so if you don’t like the truth, then you probably don’t need to read this. 🙂

I don’t talk about my life before Christ too often, even though I know it will/could help someone. And I find that it is important to be transparent. I encourage you to ask questions, mainly for the fact, I like to talk and get bored if I don’t, plus most people have trouble understanding.

As someone that has come out (for the lack of better words) of the gay lifestyle; it is important to remember that even if we disagree with someones lifestyle, you have to be polite. I know that God has gave me freedom and seen His light, but others have not yet and we have to be respectful to them.

I lived in the gay lifestyle for about 11 years, even though I didn’t ‘officially’ come out until 2012 to some friends, then 2014 to the world. I was even married for 5 years, woah, what you were married?? Yes, I was from 2009 to 2014.

I forget to mention something, I was going to church all during this time, and thought I was a Christian, but deep down knew I was ‘playing’ that relationship and church. So, I knew what God can do in other’s life and what is possible with Christ, but didn’t really experience it fully.

What you have to understand about the gay lifestyle is that being gay is way more then sex. It was about finding love and satisfaction in a person that you couldn’t find anywhere else. The nagging thoughts of you are worthless were there. But, I find refuge in looking a gay porn. This ruined my life, anyone that has been addicted to porn knows that its hard to get away from it. We all have struggles and temptations that we deal with.

After my divorce in 2014, I left church in April of that year. That summer of 2014 was what I thought the best times of my life, but knowing now what I do, it was hell on earth. I was smoking weed, I was drinking, I was being a sex crazy person. I almost ended up with a sexual harassment suit against me for dumb comments I made.

But, needless to say all during this time, God had a plan, I had 2 really good friends from the church I attended for years and the pastor who cared about me. They would come and see me and just talk life at my work. They wouldn’t pressure me to come to church and accepted me for me. I decided one week in August of 2014 to give church a try again; first week back, not bad, second week back, different story. I had looks from people and it hurt deeply. I remember telling one of my friends there about it and they told the pastor and him and I had lunch that week and talked about how I was pushing the limits for some people’s comfort zones, but it was needed. Any who, continue to go to church all that month and then I had a convo with my best friend in mid-September, that I was tried of the gay life and wanted to give my heart fully to God. So, on September 24th, 2014 (which happens to be 2 years and 3 months from the time I told my ‘friends’ I was gay), I gave my full life to God. And was baptized on the 28th of September 2014.

I knew that God was calling me for more then what I had and I decided it was time to quit the job I was at for 5 years because I knew I couldn’t fully live for Christ if I was there in that environment.

Left it in October and then worked for McD’s (its a job, don’t judge) for a few months, then in December 2014 had a terrible car accident with my twin brother and niece in the car as well. I believe it was Satan ticked off and trying to kill me, I should be dead. But God had a different plan!

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Needless to say after all I wrote, God will take the gay and use that life I was in for His glory.

Here are couple things that we can do if we have gay friends (this is what my friends did and it works):

1) Love them, you love them as people just like your own children
2) Accept them, you accept them into your homes, churches, small groups (the saying, hate the sin, love the sinner comes in play here)
3) Disciple them, show them Christ’s love through your love and acceptation and show them what God says in the Bible

Be patient, we all have disagreements, but that doesn’t mean you have a right to be harsh and mean!

 

God deserves all the glory for turning my gay lifestyle into freedom, I will always have the thoughts and temptations, but my choice is Jesus!

It’s Wednesday

Hi world,

I love Wednesdays for a few reasons, one is that it is closer to Friday and secondly because its church night! We have prayer meetings on Wednesday evenings, which are awesome, there is something powerfully about when people come together to seek God.

I am currently at the start of my college classes for the summer, five classes all online. They are not too difficult, yet. I am looking forward to the rest of the summer and to JRLC this fall. I believe that God is going to do amazing things through it.

Have a great day in God and let His presence be known in your life!